I make my bed every day, shower, cook, clean, run my errands. These are about the only things I feel in control of as I wait. And the waiting isn’t easy. I feel as if I’m going to bust, like I’m holding my breath waiting for the air to clear so that I can breathe again. So every morning I hop out of my bed and begin pulling the sheets taut again, neatly fluffing and arranging pillows, jotting down daily plans that can be achieved… as I wait for the signal that I can move out of limbo. I have another set of plans written down, the ones that I can begin once I get that green light to exhale, but I just stare at those, sigh, and pray that I don’t lose my mind in the meantime. It’s tough being here…especially when I could be somewhere else, somewhere much more to my liking. But my friend Patty believes that I have the “patience of a saint” so I’m trying to hold on, though I know my patience has long since worn thin.
Main Entry: dream, verb Definition: To experience dreams or daydreams. Synonyms: daydream, fantasize, woolgather Main Entry: ponder Part of Speech: verb Definition: To think or think about carefully and at length. Synonyms: chew on, cogitate, consider, contemplate, deliberate, entertain, excogitate, meditate, mull, reflect, revolve, ruminate, study, think, think out, think over, think through, turn over, weigh
Im not sure what's going on, but I hope you're doing ok
ReplyDeleteThanks :) I will be really soon...I think, lol. Can't really say much more about it until then though.
ReplyDeleteYou're still holding on though... That alone is a sign in and of itself... Hang in there, lady... The path shouldn't be much longer. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks, Tre. three days back from vacation and I feel the stress creeping up on me again. i don't know what it's going to take to get me out of limbo :/
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