Since I'm pecking away on an iPad.
Very relaxing day
No pressure, no stress, nowhere to rush off to or be, so I just rolled over, smiled up at the ceiling and took a deep... breath. Today I repurposed some things around the house, had a few eureka moments, made a batch of delicious deviled eggs so that my imitation crab meat wouldn't go bad, ate about 6 of said eggs, returned some shoes to Aldo in the mall, bought a new lipstick, had lunch in the food court, did some early Christmas shopping in the mall (as well as around the house, :D) and found my New Years Eve dress on sale For $15 - a metallic little Kenneth Cole number. Now I'm back home, watching the remains of the day sink down behind my neighbors' house, about to watch a movie.
He needs more than I can give
It's clear to me now that someone I know and care about is nowhere near strong enough to cope with difficulties on his own, and I'm nowhere near equipped to handle him on my own, what with my regular old human powers and such. He needs a super SUPER duper woman with the strength and courage of ten lionesses to handle his weight. It's more than I can bear and, although I used to think I could save him, I now realize that we'd both sink and I'd likely be the one to drown if I tried. He worries me a bit.
I can see the future and it's bright
But just last night I admit I was worried. I couldn't see anything but darkness. I'm no longer 21. I'm starting to look my age, even, lol. Well, actually, I'm just starting to no longer fight looking my age. I'm growing old gracefully and I still look good for a woman in her 30s. I lead a much better life now than I did when I was 21, that's for sure. My preferred social scene these days is a meal with good friends, going to see a play, calling my mom, a jazz concert in the park, game night at someones house, making ice cream with my ice cream maker, or chilling in my backyard with a good book or O magazine in the hammock. I'm happy living a slow-paced, artificial stimulant-free, simple life.
I had a talk with my ex last night. I think he's beginning not to hate me, which is good. It truly is a thin line.
I bought season passes to Universal Studios last month. I'm thinking about using them for the first time this month. We'll see.
Now that I've unplugged, I feel so much more productive and happy. The nonsense has been
eliminated.
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Yay eliminated b.s. :) I am awaiting the day when I can say I'm lounging in my backyard reading a good book. You've got a pretty decent life there, Val. Growing old gracefully in it should me wondrously interesting.
I hope so, Tre. I'm certainly optimistic about it :) and as far as the elimination of nonsense/bs, I've never felt better. I quit cold turkey and in this instance, ignorance feels like bliss, lol.
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