Friday, April 26, 2013

It’s a good day. I really can’t complain. I’ve been a little miffed lately, all of my own doing, though. I’m hard on myself when it comes to getting stuff that I need and want to get done. But honestly, I needed to chill the fuck out and relax these last few weeks. I really did. And despite my mind telling me to get the hell up and DO something, I did hardly anything. I spent the last…*counts ‘em*…4 months hustling toward a specific goal, which I completed (HOLLA!), so by March 30th I had compiled a To-Do list spanning a couple miles long. But I needed to rest after that 4 month stint, and I deserved to rest but my “go-get-‘em” mind just wouldn’t shut up, so I felt a bit guilty about resting. I had to remind myself last night that I’m still on track and to quit tripping. My plans haven’t been derailed. I still have…*counts ‘em*…roughly nine months to make it do what I want it to do so that my dreams will come true. I am one determined black woman, Jack. I refuse to let my stride buckle. My laurels hardly get slept on. I love my life but I don’t think I’ll ever be content enough to stop trying to make it better. Maybe when I retire to Hawaii… but probably not 

It looks like I’ll be going back to New Orleans, after all. My mother is a mess. She’s never interested in anything until after her chance to do it has passed. So now there isn’t a conversation I’ve had with her that doesn’t involve the mystique of New Orleans and her desire to go and see and do. And while I did enjoy a good portion of my trip there, I was a bit bummed about having not done it all in the 3.5 days that I was there this past March. I spent a mint and only scratched the surface of things to do and see, and now this woman is reading through a tourists guide and is gung-ho to plan a family trip back to The Big Easy in an RV. Okay, sure. As long as it’s in an RV, though, because if they decide to drive in a regular old car where I would have to spend 3 days, maybe longer, in very close proximity with those jackals, I’ll opt to fly and meet them there. A 4 hour car ride to Vegas with them gives me the jitters and crazy hair, so I can only imagine what DAYS in a car with them would do to me. So no, thanks. RV or I’m flying. I remember driving from L.A. to STL with my grandmother, aunt, uncle, mom and cousins in a minivan when I was a kid and, boy, was that a doozy. My grandmother cried because everyone complained about being cold with her window being down and she was going through menopause. Drama... of which, my mother definitely inherited. During my last Vegas trip with her she cussed me out because she was feeling bad about her loud snoring. Mind you, I hadn’t said a word about it. She just THOUGHT I was upset over her loud snoring and being unable to sleep. At times, that woman is cray. And the rest of them are sitcom-worthy. It’s much funnier when the sitcom isn’t your own life, though.
Anyway, it’s a payday Friday, the sun is shining brightly and I’m feeling pretty optimistic. I heading to an art class tomorrow that I’m pretty excited about and, after that, maybe a few garage sales or thrift store jaunts.
Hope you have a good one.

Friday, April 12, 2013

I LOVE days like today! We’ve been having the most awesomely beautiful weather lately and it’s reminded me of how much I love where I live and can’t imagine living many other places. Picture-perfect postcard scenery and weather :)  Everybody loves the sunshine! And I’m certainly not exempt.  So, of course, I’m getting out of the house this weekend and putting my “spring cleaning/yard sale round-up” work on hold so that I can bask in some of this greatness. My toes are done too, so I’ll be rocking a pair of comfy sandals during my travels on Saturday and Sunday.  Friday night I’ll go see #42, Saturday I’ll take the dog to the beach, and Sunday we’re planning to scour as many nooks and crannies of the flea market as we can.  The only caveat about a day as gorgeous as today, is being stuck inside this office unable to get out and enjoy every minute of it before it’s gone :(.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013


I've always loved this and I needed to read it again today.  I need to read it more often, actually.

Catch the Fire
by Sonia Sanchez
(Sometimes I wonder:
What to say to you now
in the soft afternoon air as you
hold us all in a single death?)

I say—
Where is your fire?

I say—
Where is your fire?
You got to find it and pass it on.
You got to find it and pass it on
from you to me from me to her from her
to him from the son to the father from the
brother to the sister from the daughter to
the mother from the mother to the child.
Where is your fire? I say where is your fire?
Can’t you smell it coming out of our past?
The fire of living…not dying
The fire of loving…not killing
The fire of Blackness…not gangster shadows.
Where is our beautiful fire that gave light
to the world?
The fire of pyramids;
The fire that burned through the holes of
slaveships and made us breathe;
The fire that made guts into chitterlings;
The fire that took rhythms and made jazz;
The fire of sit-ins and marches that made
us jump boundaries and barriers;
The fire that took street talk sounds
and made righteous imhotep raps.
Where is your fire, the torch of life
full of Nzingha and Nat Turner and Garvey
and DuBois and Fannie Lou Hamer and Martin
and Malcolm and Mandela.
Sister/Sistah Brother/Brotha Come/Come
CATCH YOUR FIRE…DON’T KILL
HOLD YOUR FIRE…DON’T KILL
LEARN YOUR FIRE…DON’T KILL
BE THE FIRE…DON’T KILL
Catch the fire and burn with eyes
that see our souls:
WALKING.
SINGING.
BUILDING.
LAUGHING.
LEARNING.
LOVING.
TEACHING.
BEING.
Hey. Brother/Brotha. Sister/Sista.
Here is my hand.
Catch the fire…and live.
live.
livelivelive.
livelivelive.
live.
live.

Friday, April 5, 2013

2013 Spring Overhaul

Spring cleaning is moving along much slower than I'd anticipated.  Man, I have a lot of crap! As I type this, I can still feel dust sitting on my eyelids and lashes.  I have so far amassed two tubs full of yard-sale-ables and I have yet to seriously scratch the surface of my home.  Magazines, books, and drawers have been purged, clothes reorganized, and the massive amount of toiletries I have has astounded me. I do believe that I have enough lotion and hair products to last me for over a year.  This is yet another wake up call.  Mindlessly spending money is not the business. Today's agenda consists of me installing a new porch light fixture since my electrician told me that the old one is faulty, recycling a lot of plastic, purging the magazines in my bedroom, organizing my service porch and kitchen, and sanding my front door to prep it for painting.  Oh, and if I'm not too exhausted I'll also shred old bills and receipts. I figure at the rate things have been going, I won't be done deep cleaning this house and completing all of my projects until the end of April, which is perfectly fine with me.  I love my home.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Exiting the Cellular Stone Age

SO I (finally) got a new phone AND I was able to save on my cellphone bill and get more features in the process! I am thrilled.  My previous plan was a no-contract, unlimited text and talk plan for $50 each phone (2 family phones).  My current plan is a no-contract, unlimited text, talk, AND 500mb web account for $50 for the first phone and $30 for the second phone.  So, with the cost of the new phones included in the monthly bill (one for me and one for my son) my bill has only gone up about $7 per month!  I went from $117/mo to roughly $124/mo, depending on taxes and surcharges. And now I have a “smart” phone with all sorts of bells and whistles that I’m thinking I may come to love. For starters, I can operate my home security system from my phone now, which is a definite plus.  And my text messages are no longer rudimentary, lol.  Yes, I was definitely in the Stone Age with that old Samsung I was using (it had a full push-button sliding keyboard).  I couldn’t even see half the things that my friends were sending me because I didn’t have the capability on that phone. Not anymore, though. The frustration has ended.  But nobody is more delighted and proud about my new phone than my son.  He has been bugging me for years to upgrade and he is certainly a phone geek.  Always coming to me with a sales pitch for the latest phone on the market and I’d essentially go “bah” and fan him away stubbornly, not about to fix something that wasn’t broke. I’m still a bit of a curmudgeon, that hasn’t changed.  But now I’m a curmudgeon with a cool ass Blackberry Z10.